my crossing

journey

noreply@blogspirit.com (bliss) — Tue, 04 Jul 2006 23:25:00 +0200

it's been quite awhile since the last time i post an entry here. madami na ring nagbago na hindi ko pala naikuwento dito. ewan ko ba, suddenly i lost my interest in writing, maybe it's because there was really nothing significant that i needed to take note in here, or pwede rin namang mas gusto kong alalahanin na lang ang mga bagay na un at balikan sa isipan ko ng di ko binabasa dito.

anyway, i'll share with you my thoughts from where i can still remember and siguro kahit papaano, masisiyahan din akong paulit ulit basahin at balikan ang mga alaalang iyon. i'll set aside my lovelife for it's been an open book on how madly in love i am with someone who doesnt feel the same. i feel love but he could only feel lust..u know what i mean, there's a big difference in those two. sometimes, i would think of myself to just play with his game para sumaya naman ako kahit konti because that would mean being with him, but once is enough.i already did and i guess i've had fair share of the experience so im leaving it that way na lang. oh well, so much for this and that about him, and allow me to just move on.

a couple of weeks ago, i was approached by our account manager to talk about something. clueless of what she's going to tell me, i was so nervous that time coz i was thinking baka bad shot ako sa finance manager namin sa US or i was asking myself if i had i done something wrong. when we were there na sa Senior Account Manager's office, the first thing that came out of her mouth was, "sol, i don't know how i am going to tell you this because i know it will hurt you but they're planning to send the new people to the US for training". whuatttt?!!!! i can still remember how my mind screamed to the management for deception, if that's how to call it coz that's what i felt. i feel like the decision was so unjust because ..of a lot of things. my manager asked me to hear her out first before i curse them to the deepest pit of their soul, of course biro lang, im not like that naman..slight lang, haha. so anyways, she explained to me that since the US people are under staff because of some good people who left the company recently, they cannot afford daw to just have the training on the phone, just like what happened to me when i was just starting and God knows how hard it was for me and the trainer too because of the line connection and not to mention then language barrier though we understand each other, still it was just too difficult to absorb everything. since they dont want the same thing to happen again(they can admit it or not, i dnt care anymore) but that's the fact that's screaming out of my head, otherwise why would they suddenly decide of such. in short, they want the training to be conducted there for so many reasons that could forever go on, that one thing is for sure, it will benefit everybody except me. so, to cut the long story short, i ddnt argue with the decisions anymore. afterall, what more can i say if the decision has already been served. i can contest and cry my heart out loud but it wouldn't alter a thing anymore, so why waste my energy pa. id rather use it to some alternative ways or probably decisions that would somehow lessen naman the pain that i was feeling that time.

today

noreply@blogspirit.com (bliss) — Sun, 05 Mar 2006 11:40:24 +0100

today, i decided i will not dwell on you too much..not anymore

today, i found out what i think i just am to you

today, you let me feel so stupid for falling in love with you

today, i am so mad at myself for continiously hoping and praying for you

today, i realized i will have to let you go again for the nth time

and tomorrow i hope, will never be the same as today.

it's you again

noreply@blogspirit.com (bliss) — Thu, 16 Feb 2006 11:50:00 +0100

why are you in my life again?

He said, You said

noreply@blogspirit.com (bliss) — Tue, 14 Feb 2006 12:05:00 +0100

He said: happy valentines!!!!!!!!!!
You said: yeah, same to you sweety
You said: how have u been? hope u're ok now
He said: hmm, im a little ok now, honey
He said: the cast was removed yesterday but i still cant play. stil swelling n painful.
You said: oh...so sorry to hear that but at least u're a little ok now..a lot better than before
He said: maybe...i can already "wash" my left arm. but i sleep with my sling!
You said: oh...really?
He said: how about u? how are u?
You said: still living the same old life..nothing much has changed..i just watched a concert last night..my valentine treat for myself. hehe
He said: wow! sino tumugtog?
You said: it was ogie and regine's concert..it was fun, romantic and whacky because of ai-ai and rico j.puno
He said: thats nice
He said: is it true that si ogie and si regine na?
You said: nyayyy..ano ito? tsismis?..hehehe
You said: the hell i know..
He said: yep, i heard
He said: thats y michelle van eimeren is filing divorce from australia
You said: oh really?...well..things happen for some reasons
He said: oo nga
You said: where did u get that idea naman>?
He said: from someone who is with the autralian chamber of commerce.
You said: nyay..ok ang source mo ah. hehe..and who is that someone naman hmmm??...someone special ..someone new ba?
He said: no, matanda na...businessman
He said: coz michelle is australian diba?
He said: hey...
You said: yeah
You said: am still here
He said: ok
He said: so...
He said: ehem....sino kasama mo lastny?
He said: lastnyt?
You said: kaibigan ko po..
You said: eh ikaw, how are u going to spend ur valentine...got a prospect already?
He said: guy or girl?
You said: parang sobrang passe na kase ng valentines
You said: i mean
You said: everyday for people who are in love..everyday shold be celebrated as valentines day
He said: yeah ryt
He said: so guy or girl kasama mo?
You said: she's my old friend
He said: ohhh, she....
You said: anyways, madami nga couple dun kaya medyo OP kami
You said: hahaha
He said: hmm,,maybe they thought lesbo kayo.
You said: sira..ok ka lang?
You said: lesbo ka dyan. hmp!
He said: hehehe...
He said: kaw kasi, nandito lang naman ako
You said: hehehe..yeah, right..andyan ka lang naman
He said: yes i am....
You said: so, anong gusto mong gawin ko
He said: im loveless pa rin, _ _ _.
You said: hahahaha
You said: let's celebrate
He said: we could
You said: what do u exactly mean by that then? linawin mo _ _ _ _ _l..hehe
He said: i mean we could go out.
He said: but my bro is here..
You said: ahh..he's the one taking care of you ?
You said: well..that's good me kasama ka sa haus pala naman
He said: no, he arrived yesterday lang
You said: i thought u're all alone talaga kaya nga i was really wondering how u're able to survived
He said: yesterday lang sya dumating
You said: ah ok..how long is he going to stay there?
You said: kaya ba sya pumunta dyan para sau?
He said: no
He said: he's attending conference
He said: my arm injury is entering it's 3rd week na
You said: ay oo nga pala...i was there in makati yesterday
You said: sa greenbelt
You said: malapit ka ba dun?
He said: oo
He said: next time, u text me so i can "treat" u in my place.
You said: at bakit me quote unquote pa yang treat mo na yan ha
You said: hehehe
He said: hehehe
He said: until now takot ka pa rin sakin
You said: i can see warning sign
You said: im not scared with you
You said: why should i be?..do i have reasons to get scared?
He said: so bakit warning sign?
You said: hahaha..bakit nga ba?
He said: dont know..ikaw nagsabi na u can see danger sign eh
You said: argghhhh..me and my big mouth..errr..me and my fingers..sometimes they type without me knowing it..hehehe
He said: hehehe...so wen wil u come over to makati? gosh, i miss u na tuloy...
You said: hayyy..how i wish
He said: why wish?
He said: wen u can
He said: we can
You said: i just miss u too
He said: we enjoyed each other the last time diba?
He said: my bro left for the whole day..come here! hehehe.
You said: hahaha..sira ka talaga....if only i can...if i come there to visit u..tapos bigla siyang dumating..nakakhiya no!
He said: no, he wil text first.
You said: really?
He said: yes
He said: why? can u?
He said: pero safe talaga pag wala na sya...
He said: or we go out to some place else.
You said: nah..i don't wanna go out somewhere else..i just wanted to see you
You said: to know how u've been
You said: i just miss you
He said: hmmmm....so come here.
You said: why are u doing this to me??
He said: hmmmm, dont u like the idea of us mtg?
You said: can u elaborate what that "mtg" means..or can u spell it for me. hehe
He said: hehehe...lambingan?
You said: i like the word..so sweet eh...
He said: hehehe..ayaw mo ng mtg..too corporate
You said: nah...i just don't want to regard it as business coz i dnt mean it as one
He said: yeah
You said: oh yeah?
You said: hehehe..sorry, was out for a couple of minutes..still there?
He said: im stil here. where wer u?
You said: ok, great
You said: i thought i've lost u na
You said: did u ever missed me at all?
He said: surely.
You said: why are u so sweet kapag na YM ka or was it just because ala ka nililigawan ngayon kaya ganyan ka..hmmmmm
He said: hmmmmm
He said: im just like this...am i not sweet in person? sa YM lang ba?
You said: so you are to every woman that u know eh?...how would i know if you are kahit hindi sa YM eh we were just together once.
He said: there's always a 2nd time.
He said: ryt?
You said: hahaha..u surely know how to get a woman's answer the way you want it
He said: hehehe....binubuko mo ako palagi.
You said: hahaha..asus, wala nga akong makuhang buko sau eh
He said: will kiss u nalang
You said: what if i don't let u?
He said: nothing much i can do

5 weirdest things

noreply@blogspirit.com (bliss) — Mon, 30 Jan 2006 11:45:00 +0100

this was just tagged to me by daps, so here goes my own version of 5 weirdest things in me. nakup....pasentabi sa mga makakabasa pero normal naman ako kahit me mga ganito akong ugali..hehehe

1. i can go to the market kahit naka pajama lang, as in..carry ng lola mo, parang kapitbahay ko lang ang market di ba?...eh kase nitatamad nako minsang magbihis or wala lang talaga akong damit na pamalengke, ayoko namang mag short shorts. but syempre i don't wear it na terno para d masyadong obvious di ba. hahaha

2. i love talking to myself in front of my half size mirror. im not weird but it's just somehow a relief for me whenever i do that. i get to say to myself the things i would have wanted to happen. sometimes i would act like as if someone is doing an interview of how successful i am in my life, how i met my husband and how our beautiful love story blossomed (ung tipong mga fairytales ang dating) or how i was able to get through with those tough situations..things like that..or i would act as the host and at the same time as a guest..all in one...nyahahaha..am a frustrated tv host, newscaster, communicator whatever you call it...

3. funny or weird but i love talking to strangers...

4. i just love dreaming..errrr..day dreaming that is..i simply do. i can settle for washing clothes the whole day and yet you would still see me smiling because im dreaming things i'd like to happen in my life, while busy washing the clothes. whenever i get the moment to stop for awhile, and it gives me a chance to think about things..i would always just dream...there was even one time when because i was day dreaming, i was able to make a short story out of it. it also helped me in a way to get through with things especially when im down. all i would need to do is daydream and somehow my worries would become lighter.

5. i dnt know if u can call this weirdness but im a tearjerker..as in super babaw ng luha ko..but i don't just shed a tear for sad stories, i also do even for the happy ones, lalo na kapag super natatawa ako, napapaluha ako sa kakatawa.

so, there you go my 5 weirdest things..dunno if those are really weird but i can't think of any other than that. so now, here's my chance to pass on the ball to leslie...leslie dear, i wan to tag you in this game..carry on..hehehe pangkulet lang ba.

saturday night out

noreply@blogspirit.com (bliss) — Mon, 09 Jan 2006 12:50:00 +0100

it's been quite awhile since the last time i spent an evening with friends from the old account that i used to support. since i got back for work last week from the holiday, i received tons of emails from them telling me about the night out that's set to happen on the 7th in gerry's grill libis. i was a bit disinclined because i know that would mean taking off some money to which these days i dreaded to do because im saving up for my credit card bills. anyway, good thing our company already converted their VL's and SL's into cold cash,(i wasn't able to get one because i was back at the probationary period), and so i was saved from spending that night, thanks to my generous friends. hehehe

coming off from my work at tmtli, i was still able to meet an old friend before i went straight to our meeting place. this guy has been a friend for years now but we don't get to see each other always. i just agreed to meet him since he was persistent that we meet and so i thought there must be something important that he would like me to know. not wanting to turn him down, though i know i have a "lakad" , still, i decided to meet him at NBS robinson's ortigas and had coffee at starbucks inside the mall. there was nothing new or important naman pala that he wanted me to be updated about, he just simply wanna see me. so, after a couple of text from glendy asking my whereabouts that time, while i wasn't yet done with my coffee jelly, i needed to say goodbye to my male friend. it was just a short meet up coz i told him i needed to go somewhere else. he just then asked me take care and to see him again next time. i waved goodbye after i got in to the jeepney.

i arrived a couple of minutes ahead from glendy. from citibank, we walked a couple towards the restaurant. we were the first to arrive so we reserved the table for us, then marie came in after a few minutes. we waited for half an hour for raia and roda because they got stuck from pinning down one of our friends to come, but without success. since we were all craving for seafoods, we ordered tahong ala pobre, sinigang na hipon then of course the crispy pata no less, grilled chicken and sisig. While the orders are being served, dianne arrived and join us later on. Everyone is ingestive that nobody even dared to start a conversation after we’re all full. after we had our plates emptied, we were clueless as to where we should be heading next.

some of us wanted to go home already for it’s past 11pm na but roda insisted on going somewhere else. We just found ourselves walking towards the direction of Corinthian ktv that manong guard of gerry’s told us about. When we got to the place, there was a slight argument as to whether we’re going to get inside or not. Some of us feels like the place is not the wholesome KTV that we were thinking about. But because roda was so persistent to the point that she even paid for the entire fee, that left us with no choice but to just join her. though there was only 6 of us who stayed, it was soooo fun. We sang all our heart out, hit the tone like there’s no more tomorrow. And this was the significant or should I rather say the funny part. It was when Raia asked us all to try the shooters drink. And I was amazed to the names of the drinks that we ordered. Can you imagine, I’ve had a taste of BJ, orgasm, sperm cell and among others, hehehe. Who would have thought that these are just the names of the drinks you need to take in one shot . Being a non-alcoholic that I am, I ddnt liked any of those drinks. I’ve had a bit of all the drinks we ordered and it was so distasteful as for me. But anyways, we ordered it just out of curiousity so there it was fulfilled. We stayed till 4 am and literally waited till the KTV closed, coz we were the last group to actually leave the place.

afterwards, we looked for a place somewhere in eastwood where we can stay till 5am at least so it’ll be safe for us all to go home. We found ourselves staying in Mc café and there we continued making kuwentuhan. That was really one hell of an experience and I must say it would be nice to do that again. These are the simple and yet memorable things I must say I’d collect and take with me as I go about unfolding the gifts that’s in store for me this year.

new year...new dear?...new fear?

noreply@blogspirit.com (bliss) — Wed, 04 Jan 2006 12:20:00 +0100

arggghhhh..took me tons of self encouragement to write something again and update my little bitty blog.

honestly, these days ang dami kong kinatatamarang gawin which i know is not a good sign at all, knowing that this is just bt the beginning of a new year. im supposed to have more concise and yet achievable plans and goals in life.

new year= just when the first week of january came in, im already in a financial turmoil involving difficult choices. i know it's still manegeable, hopefully with all the resources available, but i can't help myself but worry with the possibility that i might end up doing again what i've decided not to do anymore whenevever im in the middle of a financial predicament...guess, i was left with restricted options. credit cards really sucks. it pisses me off knowing i would have to pay through the nose because of my credit card bills...darn!

new dear=oh well, i would have to skip this topic since i can't relate eh. hehe just wanna take things slowly this time, hopefully i can.

new fear=am making no utterance of this this thing. much as possible i dnt wanna entertain it, if i can help it. looking forward being a worry free individual.

guess, that's all for now. my mind is loaded with lots of ideas but i can't seem to figure how to put it into writing or perhaps am just too lazy though to think and write.