my crossing

this week had been like a roller coaster for me. i needed to fix a lot of things and come up with some decision making. but to top it all, my week went just perfectly fine with some surprises that came along the way.

hmmm..how do i go about my top story nga ba?

ok, it's like this. this guy who i met like almost 2 years ago suddenly made me feel his presence again. he explained to me why he suddenly just disappeared after telling me how much he likes me. for some reasons, he had to leave me like that daw kase nahihiya sya saken at wala pa siyang maaaring maipagmalaki unlike now that he is financially stable na, kaya he made some move to contact me again. well, i was surprised of course but also felt somehow doubtful if his intentions are really in good faith. that still remains to be seen. he's planning to take his vacation here next year of march, i just dunno if that will push through but tentatively that is. he wants to see me again and is asking me if im ready to give him another chance for a relationship. honestly, it is quite hard to tell coz i really need to figure out first his true feelings for me. many things have already changed and i dunno if i would still feel the same way like i did the last time i saw him. well, he called me awhile ago and he'll be sending his picture para maalala ko ulet sya. hehehe

 

 

if i cud ask God 1 thing
it would be
"are you destined for me?"
if he says yes
then i'll love you even more!
if he says no
then ill continue to love you
'till i can make him agree
that we are really meant to be..

 

 

Call it coincidence or whatever but the other day when I met my friend, we talked about not only her married life but my single life as well, so I shared with her some interesting highlights in my life in the past few months. That included this “one day stand” that I had with a stranger…ooopppssss.. hold your breath people, before you react into something, please make sure that you read first the entire story behind it. Actually, this is one secret I’ve been trying to keep but since this was all in the past now and after satisfying my curiosity, I decided to just write everything here.
 
This happened in the latter part of July and early part of August this year. It was one lazy Sunday morning, I was at our TMTLI’s branch in Pampanga. Since it was still quite early then and no student was showing up yet, I decided to open my YM thru e-messenger, because we are not allowed to access yahoo chat, I just kept myself satisfied to what e-messenger can do for me, anyways, it’s better than doing nothing at all. Silence in the room scares me. Anyway. this e-thing will not actually allow you to enter in a chat room and those that you can exchange messages with are those that’s just on line and part of your friend’s list and vice versa. For some reasons, I don’t know how on earth it happened, but a message just popped up in my screen from an unfamiliar yahoo id. Out of curiosity, I replied back and that’s where it all started. I found out, based on what he typed in, he’s in early thirties, single and VP of a law firm located in makati…quite impressive, that’s what first got into my mind but since I was only chatting with him, I was not that confident that those informations were all true. But as our chatting progressed I became interested because we discovered a lot of commonalities in each other. We talk almost the same, in manners and ways. We had a nice chat and that was I guess enough reason for him then to give his number to me ( actually baliktad eh, it is usually the guy that would ask for my number and tatawag saken) but on his case, siya daw ang I-text ko so he can see my number. He said he promised not to reply,he just so wanted to get my number and save it.  Nahihiya daw kase siya na mag text because d niya daw alam how to introduce himself knowing sa chat lang nga kami nagkakilala. O di ba ganda ng katwiran niya, hehehe. So para lang mapagbigyan, what I did was while we were still chatting, I texted him agad without putting my name on it. So I asked him if he received a message, then he said he has to get it pa sa bedroom niya. I said ok, and then after awhile I got a text from him. So I teased him why he replied and he said he can’t help no to. Oh well, knowing men they would really make you feel kilig to the highest level, hehe. We ended the conversation because I had to attend to my students na and on his part, he’s going to attend a mass pa daw. Actually, that added to my liking him knowing na he’s God fearing kase he practices Sunday mass.
 
I waited the entire day for a text from him but I ended up disappointed. So, I told myself forget prince charming and go back to the real world. What happened that morning was just one of those and that was not a guarantee it will end up like what I expected it to be.
The following day, while still half asleep in bed I got a text message from him. Nagising akong bigla and d makapaniwala. It was just a simple morning greeting but ewan ko ba, super kinilig agad ako. Maybe because all along, I was waiting for a message from him. So, I replied and yun na, marathon text na ang nangyari only to find out he was driving pala. So, syempre concerned naman ako and di ba bawal mag text while driving, I told him to text me na lang once he arrives at his office, aba eh sabi ba naman, “ it’s ok don’t worry because my car is automatic” eh with that reply, what more can I say di ba. Perhaps, at some point you would find it mayabang ang dating, but for him he was just stating a fact and that was entirely different from bragging. Whatever, sa klase ng personalidad niya, na tipong straight forward and all, base sa mga text niya ha, parang gusto ko ng maniwala na he must really be somebody talaga. So, he told me then he will stop texting me na muna, only if I will allow him to just call me na lang, whoa! What the! Super kilig talaga ako, my Gosh eh sa lahat pa naman ng gusto ko sa isang guy yun bang tipong intellectually stimulating, masarap kausap and someone who knows the importance of communication. And so he called. God only knows the kind of man I am dreaming of and on that day, I just wished right there and then, he is already the one God has prepared for me. I can’t explain the kind of magical feeling that we both felt that time. We discovered a lot of special interests. We just ended the call because he needs to get inside na the elevator up to his floor. To borrow his own words nga, “ it’s as if I’m talking to myself. the way you responded to my messages, that’s the same thing I was thinking.”.  He himself was amazed with the connection and as to how we were able to relate with each other’s thoughts and ideas.
 

From then on, we can no longer get rid off each other. Almost every minute I receive a text from him. Because of his excitement, on that same day he sent me his picture through mms and in return I sent mine as well. We both agreed that we should be honest enough to admit and tell each other the truth should in case we don’t get to like what we're gonna be seeing. It was a fair deal, but he did not opened his email right away. He told me he’s going to check it na lang later in the evening pagdating niya sa house nila. So, of course kinabahan ako. Feeling ko siguro nakita na niya ung pic ko and he just doesn’t want me to feel bad with his reaction. On my part naman, when I saw his, it was a mixed emotion. Natawa ako kase it was really taken inside a room, sabi niya sa room niya sa office yun, which I think is partly true naman kase he was sitting on a swivel chair and he was wearing a barong..hahaha..and I still recall when he told me na he was feeling stupid that time kase he has to lock his door  so that nobody would enter and see him picturing himself, dahil kapag nagkataon, di niya daw alam kung paano sasabihin sa secretary niya or sa makakakita sa kanya ang dahilan why he is taking a picture, eh baka daw tawanan pa siya lalo na kapag nalaman na ipapadala niya sa ka text niya lang, baka di na daw siya igalang..hahaha..He looks old na nga pero he looks good. He is Spanish mestizo kase, and he has a resemblance of edu manzano. He looks intimidating actually, given by his physical looks and not to mention his status in life, if ever nga na VP siya talaga ha. 

to be continued...