my crossing

I’m supposed to be happy  since it’s already Saturday, the start of a long weekend because of the holiday but it looks like it’s gonna be just a forever dream since I need to attend an important meeting today till tomorrow, and then come Monday I need to report for work again. I’m working in a call center and knowing that kind of industry, they don’t know the meaning of holiday, believe me. Been working here for almost 3 years now and I bet ya, nothing can match up the kind of schedule they have.

Hay, sana makauwi mamaya ng maayos ang nanay ko at kapatid. Kase naman ‘tong mga tita ko sa father side, nag volunteer pa na isasabay paguwi ng province ang nanay ko, un pala d naman sila tutuloy..naku nga naman…medyo worried tuloy ako kase nga dami pasahero ngayon, puno at siksikan eh baka mahilo ang nanay kaya bumili nako kagabi ng sandamakmak na gamot nya.

Nga pala, I need to buy a lipovitan kase after my work here ng 6am, I’m just going to drop by sa haus to change at para akausap ang nanay bago umuwi ng province, then I’ll go straight to manila times for the meeting.

I’m enjoying the icons a friend has introduced to me..and cu-cute nya..hehehe

Hay, in a couple of minutes from now, log out nako. Am outta here na.

What’s in store kaya for me today?..hmm can’t wait for our dinner later..with old good friends…hehe

Sya kaya, will he invite me pa rin later kahit na I’ve given him a signal na ayaw ko sa gusto nya mangyari..hay naku, knowing that guy, baka madisappoint lang ako kapag umasa. I’ll just stick to the dinner that me and my friends have agreed upon.

It’s 3:25am according to my computer’s clock. I’ve just finished my netting report and just waiting for my system to update the new payment that came in for the day. Not bad to wait coz I can do some other stuff like this. It’s been quite awhile since the last time I post an entry here. For some reasons, I just stopped. I feel like there’s really not that much to share in my life, but when I read some of my friend’s entries, I just realized that I should do the same, updating my blog even for just simple things that happened in my day, coz somehow it makes sense. When you look back, and you happen to read the entries you made from the past, it would bring smile to your face and recall those events you noted.

So, here I am trying to collate, as vividly as I can, all the events that happened in my life for the past few weeks.

Am not really into gadgets and all that stuff so even if I have saved enough money to buy for the phone that I’ve been dying to have, I just simply can’t let go of the money because I was thinking sayang naman. I could use it for other important things, and true enough just 2 weeks ago, I took my mother to the hospital, and unfortunately that time she is no longer my dependent in my health card so I really had to bring down a sum of money for that hospitalization. What’s even worst are the medicines I needed to buy for her early recovery and at the same time maintenance to her medication. Anyways, that’s ok. So far, she is now recuperating though I still have to bring her back to the hospital for a series of laboratory tests. I was thinking like doing that come December since by that time, I could already get a health card for her and the tests she is required to undergo will be taken care of by the health insurance company in my office, thank God.

Next is my part time job at the Manila Times that is getting a bit shaky, lacking stability that threatens with danger that it might soon declare closing down because of mismanagement, God forbid. Honestly, am not really afraid should I loose this job, since I have my regular one, but I’ve become a part of the company though I’m just a part-timer, all the facilitators and officers have become a friend to me and no one can deny the fact that place has become a breathing space because of the people who has been very good to me. Another thing that added to my bewilderment is the offer of this company for a part time job as well. I’m already tempted to try it out but still thinking of TMTLI’s situation. I don’t want to escape naman sa problema because partly I am involved. So, I’m hoping that things will work out fine as we are scheduled to have a general meeting this coming Saturday and Sunday to talk about the problem in the company, and hopefully we can still save the bleeding and resort to something positive that will bring back TMTLI’s fruitful days.

So, there you go folks, that’s all for the moment. Guess, I’ve said enough for the day.

i just feel empty. i feel like im in a turmoil.

nalulungkot ako, dumating na naman ung kinatatakutan ko. bakit ganun? lagi na lang bang ganito. d man lang magtagpo, d ko makuha ung mga bagay na nais ko.

but life must go on. i know one day soon, makakamtan ko rin ung inaasam ko. siguro nga madami pa akong dapat gawin...siguro nga.

i've got a secret garden where everything you want and need is in there. i hope u'll find it soon...

got this email fom a good friend of mine and i definitely agree with what this email has to say. for my girl friends, read on, this s a nice one and hopefully men could find this email too in any way possible.

here goes the short talk:

In a brief conversation, a man asked a woman he was pursuing the question, "What kind of man are you looking for?" 

She sat quietly for a moment before looking him in the eye and asking, "Do you really want to know?"

Reluctantly, he said, "Yes."

She began to expound...

"As a woman in this day and age, I am in a position to ask a man what he can do for me that I can't do for myself. I pay my own bills. I take care of my household without the help of any man...or woman for that matter. I am in the position to ask, "What can you bring to the table?"

The man looked at her. Clearly he thought that she was referring to money.

She quickly corrected his thought and stated, "I am not referring to money. I need something more."

"I need a man who is striving for perfection in every aspect of life."

He sat back in his chair, folded his arms, and asked her to explain.

She said, "I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection mentally because I need conversation and mental stimulation. I don't need a simple-minded man."

"I am looking for someone who is striving for perfection spiritually because I don't need to be unequally yoked... believers mixed with unbelievers is a recipe for disaster."

"I need a man who is striving for perfection financially because I don't need a financial burden. I am looking for someone who is sensitive enough to understand what I go through as a woman, but strong enough to keep me grounded."

"I am looking for someone who I can respect. In order to be submissive, I must respect him. I cannot be submissive to a man who isn't taking care of his business. I have no problem being submissive... he just has to be worthy. God made woman to be a helpmate for man. I can't help a man if he can't help himself."

When she finished her spill, she looked at him. He sat there with a puzzled look on his face. He said, "You're asking a lot."

She replied, "I'm worth a lot."