22/09/2005
I don't wanna be your friend
I don't wanna see your face
I don't wanna hear your name
I don't wanna thing
Just stay away baby
Don't wanna know if you're alright
Or what you're doin' with your life
Don't wanna hear you say you'll just stay in touch baby
I'll get by just fine
And if you're goin' then darlin'
Goodbye, goodbye
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
Don't think that I care
I'm not over you yet
And I don't wanna be your friend
I'll forget we ever met
I'll forget I ever let
Ever let you into this heart of mine baby
You just gotta let me be
You gotta keep away from me
'Cause all I want is just to be free from you baby
Don't you come around
And say you still care about me
Just go now, go now
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
Don't think that I care
I'm not over you yet
And I don't wanna be your friend
You take it casually, baby it's killing me
Goodbye, goodbye
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
Don't expect me to be there
Don't think that it will be the way it was before
No baby
Don't call me in the middle of the night no more
I'm not over you yet
And I don't want to be your friend
I don't want to be your friend
Don't call me
Don't come around
And I don't wanna be your friend
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19/09/2005
Red eye
it was not in my plan to watch a movie after hearing mass yesterday, after all i was still in a sleepy mode and was hoping that i could get enough sleep after being awake till 4am of sunday... but because of my friend who insisted that we should, i agreed on one condition..that he's the one who will pay for my ticket..ehehehe
besides, i realized that i haven't watched a movie for ages now, the last time i saw one was actually a long time ago, i could not even remember when it was anymore.
so, we decided to watch in gateway mall. because both of us has been absent for awhile in watching movies, we never had any idea on what to see., till we come across of this movie flick entitled "red eye". he said it was a horror movie( later did i learned that he only assumed it was one based on the title), and so i was hesitant at first to watch it, but because we had limited choices of movies to watch, i opted for it though i thought it was scary.
but we both was surprised when we started to watch it and as the story went along..actually a suspense thriller, every scene gets into you, a fast paced movie so as they say and in the end, we were satisfied with what we watched.
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16/09/2005
From now on....
i decided not to talk about anything that has something to do in my lovelife. i know someone is already taking over that business with him. c",)
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15/09/2005
Friend of mine
I’ve known you for so long
You are a friend of mine
But is this all we’d ever be?
I’ve loved you ever since
You are a friend of mine
And babe is this all we ever could be?
Refrain:
You tell me things I’ve never known
I shown you love you’ve never shown
But then again, when you cry
I’m always at your side
You tell me ’bout the love you’ve had
I listen very eagerly
But deep inside you’ll never see
This feeling of emptiness
It makes me feel sad
But then again I’m glad
I’ve known you all my life
You are a friend of mine
I know this is how it’s gonna be
I’ve loved you then and I love you still
You’re a friend of mine
Now, I know friends are all we ever could be
You tell me things I’ve never known
I shown you love you’ve never shown
But then again, when you cry
I’m always at your side
You tell me ’bout the love you’ve had
I listen very eagerly
But deep inside you’ll never see
This feeling of emptiness
It makes me feel sad
But then again
Then again
Then again I’m glad
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call me hopeless romantic or whatever but until now im still longing and hoping that "he" is the one that God has prepared for me. i just realized this song best fit to us, the lyrics says it all. i couldn't help but sob when i heard the song being played. i was moved and touched for it speak what's inside my heart....
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Lead me Lord
Lead Me Lord lead me by the hand, And make me face the rising sun Comfort me through all the pain this life may bring There’s no other hope that I can lean upon Lead me Lord, lead me all my life Walk by me, walk by me across the lonely road of everyday Take my arms and let your hands show me the way, Show the way to live inside your love Lead me Lord, all my life Chorus: You are my light You’re the lamp upon my feet All the time my Lord I need You there You are my Light I cannot live alone, let me stay by your guiding love All through my life……..All through my days (Last Chorus) Lead me Lord Lead me Lord Eventhough at times I rather go along my way Help me take the right directions, take your road Lead me Lord and never leave my sight All my days, All my life
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Nandito Ako
Mayroon akong nais malaman
Maaari bang magtanong
Alam mo bang matagal na kitang iniibig
Matagal na ’kong naghihintay
Ngunit mayroon kang ibang minamahal
Kung kaya’t ako’y di mo pinapansin
Ngunit ganun pa man nais kong malaman mo
Ang puso kong ito’y para lang sa iyo
Refrain:
Nandito ako umiibig sa iyo
Kahit na nagdurugo ang puso
Kung sakaling iwanan ka niya
Huwag kang mag-alala
May nagmamahal sa iyo
Nandito ako
Kung ako ay iyong iibigin
Di kailangan ang mangamba
Pagka’t ako ay para mong alipin
Sa iyo lang wala nang iba
Ngunit mayroon kang ibang minamahal
Kung kaya’t ako’y di mo pinapansin
Ngunit ganun pa man nais kong malaman mo
Ang puso kong ito’y para lang sa iyo
Nandito ako umiibig sa iyo
Kahit na nagdurugo ang puso
Kung sakaling iwanan ka niya
Huwag kang mag-alala
May nagmamahal sa iyo
Nandito ako
Nandito ako umiibig sa iyo
Kahit na nagdurugo ang puso
Kung sakaling iwanan ka niya
Huwag kang mag-alala
May nagmamahal sa iyo
Nandito ako
Nandito ako...
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i remember, this was one of the song we sang together when we spent a night..it was very special for me, actually i was already wanting then to tell him that song is for him, but chose not to for i don't wanna spoil that special night.
now that he knows my real feeling for him, i pray and hope that if ever he gets the chance to hear that song( since he was the one who got the idea of singing it anyways) no matter how old this maybe, so i really have no idea if he would still get to hear this being played not unless he has a cd or something... still i wish he will stop and think of me..and hopefully, all the angels in heaven will whisper my name for him to love and hold...
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14/09/2005
A letter to the one that God has prepared for me
You just don't know how often I dream of finally knowing what it feels like to be in your arms. Even at this very moment I am imagining how you will simply sweep me off my feet! Perhaps I would be drawn to you by your smile, your eyes, or maybe even how you manage to make me laugh by your silly little ways! I don't really know for sure but I am praying that God will help me recognize you when the right time comes. I think of all the pain that I have gone through in the past and of how much I have cried since the day I began my search. I just wanted you to know that I find my strength in clinging onto my vision of the beautiful life ahead of me --- the life I shall spend with you. In my mind and in my heart I know that you are worth all that pain and sacrifice. After all, the tears have become a part of my life and I believe that they are slowly washing away my flaws so that I would become perfect, not perfect in its truest sense, but perfect --- for YOU!
I wonder if you've gone through so much pain as well. I wonder if you've been hurt so many times along the journey. But my dearest one, please don't ever give up because I am right here...patiently waiting for you! I assure you that when we finally find each other I would slowly heal those wounds by my love. At night, I would look out my window and stare at the beautiful sky, hoping that somehow you are also looking up and wondering about me. I utter a silent prayer and send all my cries to the heavens above thinking that in time they would reach you. And when I feel impatient, I just close my eyes and believe that you are on your way and that you are longing to see me as well. It is funny but when I finally fall asleep, it is still you that I think of, for you are always in my dreams.
It seems that, for now, that is the only place where I can hold on to you, long enough to tell you how much I love you. In my dreams you would kiss away my fears and wrap me with your arms of love. And this, all the more, makes me want to wake up and face the new day ahead with the hope that soon enough, you will no longer be a dream but a reality and once again I am assured that you are worth the wait. And when that time comes, everything will fall into its place, just as I had imagined, just as I had thought and dreamed, just as I had believed it would be! By then, I would simply look back and smile at all that I have gone through, in spite of the pain and amidst the simple joys of life --- and I would be very thankful because they all led me to you! In the meantime, take care of yourself for me. Hold on to our dream and don't even think of letting go. Believe in your heart that we will find each other no matter what happens. God has planned the course and it is up to us to follow the directions. Don't worry, don't be afraid about getting lost, God saw to it that all the roads, no matter which one you choose to follow, lead to me .
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I Like You
Well, you know, we didn't meet that often.
In fact I have only met you once, the day we met, and that's all.
After that we have only been contacting via e-mail and phone.
My first impression, I really like your looks, a man in ur own way.
I did suddenly say to my friend that you are so cute on the first glance.
But your personality, I don't really know.
E-mail and phone can't really tell.
But well, after sometime I met you again -- in person.
It's just...lots better.
It's lots better to be able to talk to you in person,
to see how you blink your eyes,
to see how you walk,
to see how you gaze in to the space.
It really is comfortable being with you.
I thought I would be nervous but I didn't.
I really feel comfortable and familiar.
I like to see you smile.
Your eyes are so sweet and your lips are so fascinated.
It really is good being able to touch you in flesh.
Well, I just realized, I really like you.
I'm not someone believing in falling in love on-line without having to meet that person.
So I don't really trust the e-mail and such.
Well, I'm not saying that I'm falling for you. I don't...not just yet.
But I really like you...I like you alot.
I really care about you.
I really am worrying about you.
If I were to be too close to you, I might definitely fall for you.
Gosh...thanks God that you are away now.
I don't want to fall for you because I don't want to have a broken heart.
You are the man of my dream that I have ever met.
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13/09/2005
How many times
ilang beses bang kailangan kang mabigo bago matagpuan ang tunay na pagmamahal.
ilang beses bang kang kailangang umiyak upang maramdamang tao ka lang na nasasaktan.
ilang beses bang kailangang magtago sandali sa mundo upang muling mabuo.
ilang beses kong itatanong ang mga katagang ito?
madami na rin akong relasyong napagdaanan, lahat iyon hindi nagkaroon ng magandang katapusan, ngunit ganunpaman kahit sandali sa mga panahong "kami" ay madami namang masasayang sandali. kapag binabalikan ko ang mga sandaling iyon, napapangiti ako. mabait si Lord dahil ipinahintulot nya sa akin na maranasang magmahal at mahalin kahit panandalian lamang, pero sana dumating na yung panghabambuhay kong makakasama, na syang itinakda Nya....sana malapit na.
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Birthday
today is ur thirty third birthday
i was supposed to greet you
but decided not to
i would only feel empty
since you're not here with me
but still i wish u happiness
be it with the arms of somebody else....
Just how much do I have to cry?
I pray...for the strength to forgive
for the strength to let go
for the strength to carry on....
I don't want it to hurt me no more.
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